My Eggs are Immature

I just received a call from my RE's office, and my estrogen levels were low - really low - at 64. I asked them what this meant and basically it means that my follicles/eggs are not becoming mature so the sperm has no chance with my eggs. She said that it would mean I would be a candidate for estrogen medication (which makes me nervous because my mom took estrogen therapy while going through menopause and she is now fighting Stage 3 breast cancer). I am getting a little nervous/anxious even though they said that this is nothing to worry about and they see it a lot. I know this is probably a ridiculous thought since they said they do see this a lot - but does this mean I should forget about having my own kids? Am I going into early menopause? I need to stop freaking out because everything is going to be o.k. right?

They said they need to see me again on Day 3 (though I was originally told Day 5) for a consult to see what to do next.

Have I mentioned that this whole infertility thing sucks? Why can't I just have normal levels of hormones; normal, mature eggs; and normal fallopian tubes? Why? And it is all the more frustrating when I was told back on Day 3 that everything looked normal when it wasn't. And I really want to know why this wasn't discovered sooner? Did I not have these problems 2 years ago when I first started to see this RE? Or did this just happen in the year I took off from any fertility treatments? I guess I'll find out sooner enough when I get a copy of my medical records.

Now, I just have to wait until March 14 to see the 2nd opinion RE and whenever Day 3 happens of my cycle to see my current RE to discuss all of this. Of course, I will probably be asking Dr. Google for information until those days happen.

This is so sweet...

A friend sent this video to me, and it is so sweet - it made me a bit teary (it's about an autistic kid who got to suit up in the last game of the basketball season at his school)...

Update: Apparently, that link is no longer good, but if you go to youtube.com, it should be there somewhere - usually under the most viewed.

CD12

This morning I went into the RE's office for an ultrasound to see if I might be ovulating from the left side this cycle. The answer - we don't know. I have about 5-6 follicles on each side, but they are small - not anywhere close to where they need to be. Thus, neither side wants to be the dominant side this cycle - at least not yet.

And last week when I got the results back from the CD3 bloodwork, I was told by that office that everything was normal - FSH and Estradiol, but my RE told me today that yes the FSH is normal, but the Estradiol should be higher than 20 at that time. She then had me give more blood to the vampires to see where my estradiol level is at now - she said that it should be around 100, but she doesn't think that it will be. I keep checking my home messages to see if the RE's office has called yet, and they haven't.

Of course, it wasn't until I left the RE's office that I thought of all these questions I want to ask. What does it mean if my Estradial level is low? Does it just mean I'll ovulate later or does it mean that when I do ovulate, my follicles aren't that mature? I'm waiting for the doctor's office to call me back with today's results, then I'm going to see if I can leave a message with the doctor to answer these questions.

My RE said she wants to see me again on CD5 of the next cycle to discuss this more, but I don't know if I can wait that long! However, before that time comes, I will have seen the other doctor for the 2nd opinion so that's good.

Infertility Books

Some books I just finished reading...

Book #1 was The Empty Cradle - this book and the book below were both written by women who had gone through infertility themselves.

It was an interesting book to read to find out how far infertility treatments have come in the last 200+ years. It was also interesting to read on how society's views on infertility have changed (even the term used has changed over time from being barren to sterility to infertility). In colonial times, it probably didn't seem as big of an issue since people lived in a much closer community than people do today and several different families may live together. However, as society moved away from this communal society to where the family unit was more of just the married couple and the children, infertility became a bigger issue to couples who couldn't have their own children for whatever reasons. Once society moved away from more of a communal society, that is when women started asking for medical help. Women also started to seek more medical help when they heard of medical advances in the treatment of infertility. And it was usually the women who sought medical help - it was rarely men who did so.

However, even though some views have changed, it is interesting how some views toward having children or staying child-free leave, but come back again over time (or maybe they never left). For example, the view used to be couples who didn't have children were odd and treated in somewhat of a poor manner (especially the women who decided to go for a college education - they were being selfish, etc.), then the view changed to it being o.k. not to have children because the world is overpopulated anyway and feminism and all that, then the view changed back (though may not as strongly) that women who didn't want or have children were odd or if women wanted to go for their career first were deemed selfish. People still have those views today - people will always ask you when you're a couple and you've been married for a while, "how come you don't have kids yet?" or "well, maybe you should have tried sooner rather than trying to start your career first."

The book was also a little depressing and scary. The things that some women used to do (and well, still do today) in order to have a baby is incredible. What women used to go through in the 1800s or early 1900s almost seems like torture compared to what women go through today (which still seems like a lot -I'll mention this a bit more when I talk about the other book ). Some doctors when performing some surgeries wouldn't use anesthesia because it was so new and they didn't know what it would do. I couldn't imagine going through surgery without anesthesia. And when women started going to doctors for help, doctors didn't even consider for a while that men could be the problem and when the doctors did start looking at men, it wasn't in too much detail or they just looked to see if the man had an STD that it may have then given to his wife. It wasn't until relatively recently that doctors even checked men first before they checked women.

Anyway, it was an interesting book.

Now onto Book #2 - The Infertility Survival Handbook. I didn't really read the whole thing. I just read the parts that pertained to me. I read a lot about what questions to ask doctors and what IVF will be like. IVF will consist of a lot of bloodwork and ultrasounds before retrieval(thus, coming in late to work several days a week); shots (just reading about them made me queasy); gaining weight while taking those shots (which means I really do need to exercise and lose some weight before starting the IVF cycle and also means the shots might make me look pregnant - which should be a blast(!)); going under anesthesia when they retrieve the follicles; taking a bit of time off work to recuperate after retrieval; waiting to see if fertilization takes place and to see how healthy the resulting embryos are for transfer; taking time off from work for when they transfer the embryos (and with the transfer, it involves having a full bladder, which is always fun - please note sarcasm); and finally, the dreaded 2 week wait from transfer to the beta HCG test. I will be missing A LOT of work when we go through IVF. It would be nice if I could just take the 2 weeks off from work from retrieval to the beta test, but that probably won't be able to happen. I just don't know how some of you do IVF more than once or at all - you are really brave, strong women! I'm a bit scared to do it, but I hope it will all be worth it in the end.

Even though this book kinda freaked me out about what's going to happen with the IVF cycle (whenever it does happen), it is still really good to know going in what all is involved with it so there are no surprises. I really wish I didn't have to do this - it's frustrating that so many women can get pregnant without medical help and without spending a lot of money, but if this is what has to be done for me to get pregnant and have a baby, then I'll do it. Plus, I feel it will make me appreciate my child(ren) even more so than I would have if I hadn't gone through infertility.

2nd Opinion

This morning, I made an appointment at a different fertility clinic to obtain a 2nd opinion. I doubt I will be told anything different, but it will be comforting to know that another doctor agrees that IVF is the best thing for us to do (not that I'm looking forward to doing an IVF cycle).

I have to wait until March 14 though. Luckily, the person I spoke to at this clinic (so far this clinic sounds great just by talking to the guy who answered the phone) said that they actually do take my insurance (after being told the last time I called that they don't). That's good news so I don't have to worry about finding $175-$350 (depending on whether the doctor will do an ultrasound) to pay for the consult. I only wish it wasn't so far away. I tend to be a little impatient.

How I Live My Life...according to this quiz.

Found this quiz via Jenny from the Infertility Block's blog...

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

How Do You Live Your Life?

How am I supposed to do that?

So one of my coworkers has this friend who claims she is a psychic. I'm not sure how much I believe in this stuff, but it is always interesting to hear. She told me once that she doesn't see children in my near future, but to keep trying. Now she's telling me that I should try not to focus on having a child so much. How exactly am I supposed to do that? I can't stop thinking about it, especially since I started going back to the RE after being away for a little over a year. My coworker, who has been through infertility herself, told her friend that is near impossible for a lot of us going through this.

I'm going to try to get into making my own beaded jewelery since one of the women in my support group showed us what she made and it was really pretty. I figure I could do that since I tried knitting, and I just can't do it. Anyone have any ideas? I doubt I will ever be able to take my focus away from having children, but I suppose I can try new hobbies to help with that.

Support Group

Last night was the last official meeting of my support group. I don't want to take away from the support I get via the blog world because the support I get in the blog world means a LOT to me, but there is something to be said for talking to people in person about all of this. I was just thinking of this last night and the support I get from my support group and in the blog world means so much to me.

It is really nice to talk to women who understand what I'm saying and who understand what infertility feels like. It is nice to have people who listen and have them not judge me because of what I'm feeling or act like they are better than you. It's nice, but at the same time not nice, to know that others are going through this and to know you are not alone. It is nice to be able to be there for others when they most need it and to understand what they are going through.

I really wish I had found a support group earlier, but maybe it was just the right time for it now. Luckily, most of us want to continue meeting every week, so we are - every Tuesday night. I'm so lucky to have found the support that I have.

How long will it take?

So I was just watching Desperate Housewives (the episode that aired 02/19), and it looks like 2 of the characters are going to be adopting. How long do you suppose it will take for them to get a baby?

A Needle Weekend

My weekend was just full of fun (some truth and some sarcasm in that statement)!

First of all, this past Friday night, I went out to this bar in the U-District of Seattle to celebrate a friend's b-day. This part was fun. It was just the girls and we all just sat around having a few drinks and chatting. It was a good time. On the way home, I took my friend's fiancee (of which she is now a friend) home, and we chatted about the whole infertility thing. I just met her a few months ago, and we never really talked about this stuff before as she really just moved here to Seattle.

Anyway, I'm rambling. She had a hysterectomy at age 24 due to cancer so she will be unable to conceive. It was a good conversation. Hopefully, we can get together soon to chat about things some more. It will be nice to have a real life person (along with my support group) to talk to about things.

On Saturday, I went to the RE's office for some bloodwork. Have I mentioned that I hate needles? (I have no idea how I'm going to react to all the shots for IVF.)They always have the hardest time finding a vein to use. When he eventually found it, he jabbed in there and it HURT! I now have a lovely bruise on my arm. It did not make me especially comfortable when he was trying to take my blood that he did not get enough sleep and was partying the night before (his words).

Anyway, they were checking the FSH and Estrogen levels - both of which were normal. So it is looking like my problem really is that blocked tube - though that doesn't excuse the left side - it should be just fine. We'll see if it is ovulating this cycle when I go in on the 27th. I really hope that it is.

After that, I went to my acupuncture appointment. It was a good appointment, but for the first time since I've been going to acupuncture, I have the loveliest bruise on my tummy. And what's funny is that I didn't even notice it until my husband pointed it out, and after that, of course, it started to bug me.

Last night, my husband and I were invited to this club/concert hall to see a friend of a friend sing. It was a really nice club. I had never been in this club before. The food was nice, the service was great (very attentive and when they accidentally threw away our leftovers, they made us brand new dishes to take home!), and the entertainment was great!

It was a good weekend, though I'm looking forward to next weekend when I have absolutely nothing planned. That will be soooo nice!

Of course...

On the ride home from work tonight, a woman in my vanpool mentioned that she's pregnant. They started trying about 6 months ago and of course, she's pregnant - about 5 weeks. I knew she would be. She seems to get whatever she wants. Plus, last week when she kept complaining of not feeling well, I just had a feeling that she was pregnant. She knows that we're trying and she said she was afraid to tell me.


Although I'm happy for her, I am also really upset. Today of all days she tells me. I know she didn't know that today was CD1 but today when I have AF visiting to give me that physical reminder that I am STILL not pregnant - just UGH!!!
What is going to upset/annoy me even more is that she talks about herself ALL THE TIME and now(!), now(!), I get to hear her talk for the next several months about her pregnancy. And she will talk about it constantly just like she talks about everything else in her life constantly. And my husband pointed out that after she has the baby, I get to look forward to her talking about her baby. I do appreciate that I have my iPod to listen to - which reminds me, I should charge it for tomorrow.

Update: On the way home from work on Friday, she made sure to tell me that she got a phone call from her doctor telling her that she is now 4 and 1/2 weeks pregnant. Thanks for letting me know!

Another Cycle Begins

Well, today is CD1 and the cramps are horrible! Thankfully, the ibuprofen finally kicked in and I can possibly get some work done now.

Anyway, I'm having CD3 bloodwork done on Saturday. My husband and I decided to go ahead with it this cycle rather than wait until next cycle like the doctor suggested (she suggested that to give my acupuncture longer to work). I feel like going ahead with it this cycle will be o.k. because I've now had 2 cycles that were in normal range. This cycle was 29 days long. And I just don't know if I can wait. I want to get the testing done, get the results and then take them to another RE for a second opinion. I'm not expecting the new RE to say anything different really, but I still want to know if another RE will agree with my current one. And I'm also checking them out to see if I'd like to go with this other clinic or stay with my current one.

Also, on CD12 of this cycle, I'm also going back for another ultrasound to see, I hope, that the left side is ovulating this cycle. Even though I know IVF is probably the only way I'll get pregnant, I still want to know I have somewhat of a chance on my own until we are able to do IVF.

I also learned that a fellow infertile (that I know outside blogland) is pregnant after her first IUI. I'm very happy for her. Now, if only the rest of us could get there. :-)

TV Shows & Infertility

I almost forgot. Last night, as my husband and I were relaxing at home, we decided to watch last week's Scrubs episodes (I love my DVR). I know it's just a tv show, so I really shouldn't be bugged by this - especially since I always tell others - it's just a tv show or it's just a movie. I know I'm being a bit of a hypocrit when I say I was bugged by a tv show's depiction of something.

On the show, Carla is trying to get pregnant. She's 36 and she's been trying for a whole 2 months and she's starting to get worried. 2 months? Seriously? So she's bugged by it and she goes to the doctor to get checked up on and the doctor will run a fertility test because after all she's been trying for 2 months already and she's not pregnant. So the doctor calls her back - on the same day she had the tests done and what was day 1 of her cycle to tell her everything is fine. Like Fertility Now said, I want to know about this magical test. I would love to not have to do blood test after blood test and ultrasound after ultrasound and to not have to have gone through that HSG or the Lap. And since when will a doctor even test after 2 months? My OB/GYN wanted me to start charting my temps for a couple months before she would even do anything else. Then she had me do an HSG. Then when we found my right tube was blocked, she referred me to an RE for several more tests and a lap..

So for all those people, I say "it's just a tv show" or "it's just a movie" - I'm sorry. I understand your pain.

Insurance Coverage & Friends

I mentioned the other day how upset I was with a friend's comment on my other blog about whether or not insurance should be mandated to cover infertility treatments. I knew that most of my friends would disagree with me yet I still got upset with what was said.

Over the past couple days, I have talked (well, really e-mailed) with this person. I was really emotional on Saturday when I first read her comments. I think it really didn't matter what she said, I was going to get upset. This whole infertility things just sucks, and just thinking about what my husband and I will have to go through to have a family when other have it so easy really frustrates me and saddens me and I will be emotional about it whenever the subject comes up. Some days are better than others.

Right now, she is being a good friend. Although she disagrees with me, she is listening to me and trying to help me come up with ways for us to save up the money for IVF so we can do it as soon as possible. I do appreciate that. Hopefully, we'll have most of the money by the end of the year. I don't think I'll be able to do this more than once - emotionally and physically (I don't know how some of you women manage to do IVF multiple times - I've been reading The Infertility Survival Handbook to read more about it and I was just freaking out with all the shots you have to do - I HATE needles).

At this point in time, I would love to try it as much time as it takes, but I know that isn't a possibility. If it doesn't work, which I hope to God that it does, then we will probably move onto adoption. But who knows, maybe I'll change my mind by then. After all, just a few short months ago, I didn't think I would want to try IVF just because it is such a risk. Such a huge gamble. But I want to experience pregnancy, so if it doesn't work the first time, which I have to hope that it will, maybe I will want to try again. I guess I won't know until we get to that point.

As I write this, AF is just a little bit away. I can feel it. The cramps are getting worse. I do feel a little sad about it, but since I knew there wasn't any chance of it happening this month anyway, I don't feel as sad as I usually am.

Well, that's all for today.

Oh, I almost forgot. My husband did get me something else for Valentine's Day. He got me another man! ;-D He got me Jon Stewart's book from a few years back called "Naked Pictures of Famous People". I love Jon Stewart - well, I love The Daily Show - my husband knows me so well!

Other Blog

If anyone ever wants to comment on my other blog - all you need to do is when the pop-up comes up, just type in the user name and password given at the top of the pop-up. You should be able to comment then. If that doesn't work, let me know. :-D

I'm only mentioning this because one person tried, but she wasn't able to. I am not asking for comments (though they are always welcome). :-D

Believe

As I was typing my last post and thinking about the whole infertility thing, Believe by Lenny Kravitz came on my iPod. I've been listening to this song during the times I start to doubt things will work out or when I'm angry with God - sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesn't...

Here are the lyrics:

I am you and you are me
Why’s that such a mystery?
If you want it you got to believe
Who are we? we’re who we are
Riding on the great big star
We’ve got to stand up if we’re gonna be free yeah

If you want it you got it
You just got to believe
Believe in yourself
’cause it’s all just a game
We just want to be loved

The son of God is in our face
Offering us eternal grace
If you want it you’ve got to believe
’cause being free is a state of mind
We’ll one day leave this all behind
Just put your faith in God and one day you’ll see it

If you want it you got it
You just got to believe
Believe in yourself
’cause it’s all just a game
We just want to be loved

The future’s in our present hands
Let’s reach right in
Let’s understand
If you want it you’ve got to believe yeah

If you want it you got it
You just got to believe
Believe in yourself yeah
’cause it’s all just a game
We just want to be loved

Valentine's Day

Well, today is Valentine's Day. My husband said that he got something for me, but I couldn't tell if he was kidding or not. I thought we had already exchanged gifts last weekend when we celebrated our 10 years together. I guess I'll find out when he gets home. I didn't get him anything extra, so I'll feel bad if he got me something.

We aren't doing anything special tonight. Just hanging out at home like it is any other day.

Today is also CD28. My temp went down and I started to have cramps so I'm sure AF is on her way, which means that it looks like my cycle will be normal - so yay for that. So the decision I have to make is whether or not to go ahead with CD3 this next cycle or wait until the cycle after that as the RE suggested. I kinda want to just get it over with and get the results from that test and go get a 2nd opinion as soon as possible. I am really tired of waiting to do something so another month will probably drive me crazy, but it's not like I'll be able to do IVF that much sooner. I still need to save the money for that.

Anyway, that's all for now. :-D

Good Stuff

I just thought I would mention some happy things on this blog for a change! My husband and I started dating 10 years ago yesterday - we've been married for close to 7 1/2 of those years. He proposed to me 8 years ago yesterday. I can't believe we've been together for 10 years. It just seems like yesterday we were all nervous around each other, yet so excited to be with each other. He's been such a wonderful husband and friend - he truly is my best friend.

This past Friday night, we went out to celebrate our 10 years together (we had to celebrate a day early because we went to a b-day party yesterday). We went out to dinner to this place called Bick's. It was a nice restaurant, but I just thought the food was o.k. There is this woman in my vanpool who can't get enough of this place. Maybe I just had the wrong dish.

Anyway, we had decided to exchange small gifts with each other for the 10 years together and for an early Valentine's Day gift. I got him this book he wanted called Collapse by Jared Diamond and some chocolates. He got me The Spiderwick Chronicles that I've been wanting for a while after a friend recommended them.

On Saturday night, we went to the birthday party. We joined some friends at The Tin Hat for some dinner and drinks in celebration of bitterkat's b-day. It was good food, though I really want to try their tacos after all the talk I hear about them but they only have them on Tuesdays and I have my support group on Tuesdays. After eating and drinking, we went to bitterkat's place to watch everyone's favorite scenes from movies or tv shows that we liked. I played a scene from The Incredibles and one from Office Space. I had a couple from Say Anything and another from The Incredibles, but I'll have to save those for next time. It was a good idea for us to do this - it was fun!

This morning, I ventured out of the house and exercised (!) - which I'm trying to do more of. It was a really nice day in Seattle. I walked around Greenlake with the friend who commented on my infertility & insurance post on my other blog. I wanted to bring it up with her, but I just couldn't. I just didn't know what to say and I really didn't want to get upset with all of Seattle walking around Greenlake with us. My husband was also there, but he ran around Greenlake with another friend of ours.

I haven't really done much after that. I was invited to a baby shower today, but I didn't go because of all the shittiness that we're going through with infertility. I'm happy for this person, but I just wish I could be there alongside with her in pregnancy.

Anyway, that's my weekend. Why are weekends so short? I really need another day off...or two.

My Friends Don't Get It

I really wish my friends would at least try to understand how I feel. I showed them the Empty Arms video - though I doubt any of them watched it. I mentioned to them on my other blog (the one that I let them read) that I think insurance should cover infertility treatments. I don't know why they would even try to understand my point of view. They never ever ask me how I'm doing. It feels to me that they couldn't give a shit what I'm feeling or how much infertility is hurting me. I don't know why I mentioned it to them. I knew none of them would see my point of view. I knew that no one would care. I'm so close to not wanting to be around them anymore. I can't stop crying - mostly because infertility just sucks and I can't stand it anymore. I was supposed to be a mother by now. I can't believe we've been trying for FOUR years! FOUR years! And still no baby. Another reason I'm crying because my friends don't get it and they don't even seem to be making any kind of effort to even try to understand. And it isn't just because of their reaction to the insurance coverage (only one person has responded on this blog entry - I had mentioned it earlier in an earlier post and he doesn't think insurance should cover it - you'll notice my comments back then are way different than what I say now and that wasn't too long ago), it's because it feels like they don't give a shit about me and what my husband and I are going through.

I f***ing hate this, and I just want it to be all over and I haven't even tried IVF yet.

News

A couple news articles I just read I wanted to share with everyone...

First, there's an article from a local news station here in Seattle that talks about people who are buying their IVF drugs on the black market. I can totally understand someone wanting to do this - after all, I don't know how I'm going to come up with $15,000 for the treatment. However, I don't think I could do it. You just don't know what you're going to get. But maybe news like this will encourage legislation to be passed that insurance cover fertility treatments.

Second, a 37 pound woman delivered a baby boy after 2 miscarriages. Just wow!

Thanks!

Thanks for the comments. I really appreciate them. I just wanted to let you know that I think I've decided not to go. I think it would just be too much right now. Thank you for your support!

Speaking of comments, I just noticed that blogger seems to have deleted at least 1, if not more, comment on one of my posts . That's very strange and irritating. Just wanted to share in case anyone notices in the future that their comments are missing. I did not take them off.

To Go or Not to Go?

So in my last post, I mentioned that I bought a baby shower gift for a baby shower I said I would go to on Sunday. I talked to my support group about it and they all seem to think that even though it is ultimately my decision on whether to go, I should really consider not going after my feelings over the past few weeks with having to try IVF and all the usual frustrations I have with going through infertility. I know how the last baby shower I went to was a little difficult when they talked about being pregnant and the symptoms and all that - what makes me think that this one will be any better for me?

But I want to be a good friend to this person. I am really just starting to get to know her and I want that to continue, but I just don't know if I can make it through the baby shower. I wasn't terribly excited about shopping for the gift either - I just made a quick trip to Target and got it over with. I don't want her to be upset with me for not coming, so I feel like I should go, but my group kept saying (and my husband agrees with all they've been saying btw) that I need to think of myself first and not think of what others are going to think of me.

These past 4 years have been a big struggle, but I don't want to let it control my life (even though it does). I'm sure most of you, if not all of you, reading this understands. I just don't know what to do.

Empty Arms

I found a video via KitKat's blog ("'It Only Takes Once?' Ha!") about the infertility journey called Empty Arms - I really liked it and I shared it with my friends on my "It's All About Me" blog (the blog that my friends actually know about) so they can hopefully try to understand what we're going through.

Shopping for Baby Shower Gift

So today I went shopping for a baby shower gift for a friend. This is her 3rd child. While I'm happy for her, there's still a big part of me that's completely jealous. I just want one child right now! I love looking at infant clothing because it's so cute, but I could only take it for so long. I just got some 3-6 months onesies and a diaper pail that was on her registry, then went and did some shopping for myself (nothing exciting - just a shower liner and a plastic storage container).

Anyway, today is CD20 - 5 DPO. I might have a 29 or 30 day cycle, which would work out just fine. If that's the case, I'll have to decide whether I should go ahead and get the Day 3 testing this next cycle or wait until the cycle after that as the RE suggested. Either way, I'm going back next cycle on CD12 for an ultrasound to see if my left ovary is working this time. I really hope that it is.

Infertility & Insurance Coverage

There are two bills in Congress currently dealing with insurance coverage of infertility treatments. There is also a bill that would make the adoption tax credit permanent.

Please take the time to go contact your representatives and ask them to support these bills. You can click on the link above. Thanks!

Finally...

Finally, my temp went up on CD16. I was beginning to get a little nervous. I guess the RE was right, it won't be a 28 day cycle this time.

One of my friends found out yesterday that her IVF cycle didn't work. :'-(

I don't have much more to say today.