UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My temp went back down to 98.0. Along with the cramps I've been having, this is really not a good sign. Fertility Friend is now going back to its earlier decision of CD12 being the day of ovulation. If it's right, that means AF should arrive tomorrow. Needless to say, I'm starting to feel a bit depressed this morning. And please, please don't tell me that my negative attitude caused the IUI to fail (and I know most of you wouldn't say this). It is not this that has caused this to happen - it's my stupid, f***ing, broken-down body. I'm holding out a sliver of hope, but that sliver is almost nonexistent at this point.

So I come into work already feeling down because of what I said above, and on my desk is a book "What to expect when you're expecting". WTH?!?!? Are you kidding me? Who the hell would put this on my desk at this point in my life? Am I overreacting because I'm having a bad morning? I'm sure whoever put this here (and I'm not certain who did) had the best of intentions and had a more positive attitude about this IUI than I do, but you do not give stuff like this to someone who is going through infertility and who doesn't know yet if her IUI or IVF worked. I just don't even know what to do. Should I keep the book in the off chance I should ever need it? Or do I thank the person for thinking of me(if I figure out who it is), but that I can't keep this book because I have no need for it at this time and I may never need it?

Only 7 more hours of work left.