Trying Hard Not to be Depressed

My MIL is doing better, though they are still not sure what's wrong with her. They are doing more tests on her heart today. So after work, my husband and I will go back down to Tacoma.

On the infertility front, I think I'm putting on a brave face for everyone. I've done mostly well about keeping my emotions about the IUI on the backburner while we figure out what's going on with my MIL. I feel like crying about this latest failure, but I feel like people will look at me as if I'm being the most selfish person in the world for thinking of myself when my MIL is in the hospital. Of course, I care about my MIL and want her to get better, but this failure just sucks! My husband says I'm not selfish for feeling sad about this failure - he's sad too, he tells me.

I've made a couple appointments this morning with my current RE and with another RE for another opinion. The appointment with my current RE is on the 19th, but the other RE, the soonest I could get in was on August 9th - after my next cycle should start. That didn't quite work out the way I wanted it too.

Anyway, that's all for now.