Another thought

I was just thinking this morning - I can't believe it has been 4 1/2 years since we first started trying to have kids. I went off birth control back in December of 2001, and even though I had a feeling that it might be hard for me to get pregnant, I seriously didn't think it would be this freaking hard and most of all, I didn't think it would take this long.

My support group was talking the other night on how infertility changes us. We are not the same people we once were. We are more angry. We are more irritated by people. It is sometimes amazing that my husband still wants to have a child with me considering how I've been lately. It is sometimes amazing that I still have friends who care and who will listen since I seem to talk about this a lot - after all, infertility seems to be running my life. I don't want it to, but it is.

Anyway, I should probably stop this post before I get too emotional. I guess this is just what I do during the 2ww.

Oh, but one more thing. On my other blog, the one my "real-life" friends read, I was looking at my stats and how people found my blog and one person typed into google "I hate blogs about infertility" and somewhere in the search results (previously, I said list) is my blog. It makes me wonder why people hate infertility blogs so much, and also why they would go through a search and then go to those blogs that they hate.