Did that really happen?

The day after the news is here. The whole situation is so surreal. I still can’t believe I got a positive. My next beta is on Friday at 8:15. I won’t be leaving work early that day like I did yesterday, unfortunately.

Yesterday, before I left, several of my coworkers asked if I was going to call them when I found out. I told them I would as soon as I was ready. I called my family first, then told my friends – both in real-life and in blogland. Then I called my work buddies. They were all so excited for me! I actually called my voice mail at work, because the nurse had called and left a message at work, just to make sure that she really said 476. She did. OMG!

Anyway, I come in this morning and start walking down the hallway to my cube and see these streamers coming down from the ceiling to my cube. I wondered if that was my cube. It was! Tomorrow, I’m going to bring my camera so I can take a picture and show you guys. Most of me is so excited that they did this – how sweet! But part of me is a little anxious about it because I didn’t want all the employees of this company to know. I wasn’t even sure when I was going to tell my vanpool (though I did tell the girl in my van that just had the baby). I thought maybe I would wait until after the ultrasound, whenever that might be, but if they walk by my cube, they’ll know.

Several people have asked me how I feel. I really don’t feel much different physically from what I’ve described before – though believe me, I’m looking for anything that might actually prove the IVF was successful besides the beta (though that is a good indication).


I just want to thank everyone so much for their comments. It is so amazing to have such a wonderful group of women cheer you on. It’s hard for me, especially after my support group meeting last night, to not have everyone join you in pregnancy. I want to have everyone be pregnant too. Last night, one of the women in my group said that I was being really quiet – although part of it was due to being really tired, part of it also was that I feel guilty for having succeeded on our first try at IVF. I just hope that each of them and all of you still trying reach success soon too.