Hey ya!

Hey there. Well, I just turned 32 this past week and I am still not pregnant. Read more about my b-day here. BUT, a friend from college just told me she's 7 1/2 months pregnant (I haven't talked to her in a while)! And at my birthday party, a friend came who is pregnant (she doesn't know that we've been trying forever). So once again, I hear about all these women being pregnant but not me! Am I ever going to get to join this club? I want to be pregnant. I want to be a mother.

God, if you're there, I've been waiting so long now. If you could let this be the right time for us to get pregnant, it would make me so happy. I need some part of my life to brighten up - I hate my job, I hate that I'm 20 pounds over my ideal weight and so I look like a pig, and most of all, I hate that I'm not a mother yet. I need something to work out in my life. I don't want to complain God because I know that my life is so much better than others, but that doesn't make my life happy. God, I appreciate the life you've given me. I have a wonderful husband and 2 wonderful kitties and a family that supports me (most of the time), but I don't feel whole. There is a huge gap in my life - I need something to fill that gap and that something that I know that would fill that gap the best is a baby of my own. Thank you. Amen.